Missing puzzle pieces....

Well, today has been a bit of a struggle for me. Over the last year I have had way too many lost friendships. No matter how strong I appear to be, or even think I am, I find out that in a little corner of my heart I still miss my friends. Well, most of them! Hehehe! Seriously, though! I see names in my phone, I read cards, see gifts, and I never really know why they aren't there any more. Just knowing if I hadn't stood behind my pastor and his dreams and visions {that have become my family's dreams and visions} then I wouldn't have lost any friends. If I had to do it again....well...I would!!!! Number 1. Because I love my pastor and believe what he is preaching, and I believe in him and the path he is taking me and my family. Number 2. Because my friendships shouldn't control my life and what I believe. I realize other people have different beliefs and I respect that! I always say "The world would be a VERY boring place if everyone were the same." I just don't get why nobody can talk to me because I don't do things the same as them, and if that isn't the reason then why can't I at least get an explanation? Life is so difficult sometimes. It's so easy just to go with the "in" crowd and try your best to be like them and be accepted by them then to stand up for what you believe and get thrown under the bus, ran over, and then they back up and run over you again. It's also difficult when you have dreams that you and your friends have dreamed that included them that is destroyed just because they think I have to be like them. It's not my place to judge, so why should I be judged? People hang out with friends in their public school's and college everyday and they don't throw them to the side of the road and say, "I can't talk to you or love you because you don't go to my church or believe what I believe." No, you show them love so they can see Christ through you, right?! Well, if they don't show them much love and respect then they must not have any friends! Hahahah! Anyhow, I said all of this to say, I still love and respect my friends oh, so very much I just wish I had answers.

I know a couple of my blogging friends may still read my blog...so if you are I want you to know that I love you so very much! I'm trying to get over the confusion that is in my mind. I know nobody is perfect and maybe you didn't have an option and you had to leave me stranded on the side of the road, if you would like to explain it you have my number, email and address! :o)

Peace, Love & Chocolate!!!!

Life is short....

.....and so very precious! And today I am reminded of this. Earlier I went to a funeral of a 33 year old lady who died of cancer, and what is tear jerking is that the day before she died her daughter celebrated her birthday. Life is so short and oh, so very sweet! I can only hope and pray that everyday when I get up I can live each day to it's fullest. God gave me life for a reason. :o) So, today I am very thankful for LIFE! And I am also thankful for my friends and family, and their honesty. True friends don't sugarcoat the truth. :o) I can't wait to see a few of them soon. Oh, what a surprise this is going to be! hehehehe! I'm evil! :o) Well, that is it for now....I'd prefer Facebook over blogging, but I might as well keep this for those who don't have a FB, and to keep people in suspense....you never know when I'm going to blog. ;o)

Peace, Love & I LOVE LUCY!!!!!!

Where to begin?!

Whoa! I haven't been on here in ages! :o) There is SOOOO much going on I don't even know where to begin! :o) So, I have picked up a new hobby....*drum roll, please*.....rollerblading! Don't laugh! :o) It's so fun, especially when you go with a lot of friends, and it's great exercise! :o) There has been a lot of Mobile Services, feeding the poor, outreach, youth class, youth functions, church and a lot of other awesome things!!!! With everything that our church has been through this year, and is still going through, we have really become a stronger church! Our city is hungry for God and we have answer! Just this past Saturday while doing outreach in the projects a bunch of little kids come running up to me hungry for love and attention. They were doing cartwheel's and flipping and all they wanted from me was attention...of course I started cheering for them and then when I got ready to leave they followed me while still talking to me. They are so easy to love! :o) Hopefully in the next few days I will be going back to be their cheerleader again. :o) The other news is our new conference!!! We are having a Family Conference, Compass, the end of December!!!! It's going to be amazing! The preachers will be: Bro. Ken Bow, Bro. Ballestero, Bro. McLaughlin, Bro. Tim Pixler and my AWESOME Pastor!!!!! It's going to be insanely incredible! :o)

Anyhow!!!! I have posted, so this should last me another few months! Bahahahhaha!

Peace, Love and a Green Tea Frap!

A little late?! Why of COURSE!!!!! :o)

Well, there has been a LOT going on recently!!!!! Next week I officially start my last year of school and then I will be looking into taking fashion designing courses and if it takes me far I may go to school for fashion designing...and haters are gonna hate, but whose life is it?! <--- all said in the nicest tone possible :o{D ANYHOW!!!!!! I really have been busy and when I haven't been busy I didn't want to blog. Hahaha! Right smart reason, ya thank?! :0) I have been having a BLAST with my youth groupies!!! From our functions to our Wednesday youth services. It's has been refreshing! It's awesome just to get away from all the stress of life and get together with your true friends and worship like nobody's watching and also not having to worry about what they think about you. They are the best. Period! This has been a very exciting year and it's been a very hard year too. I have learned a LOT about people this year...some good and some bad and some that I am really glad I came to realize before I got any older. :o) I have made new friends and I remembered the old ones. Sometimes we get caught up in making new friends that we leave out the old ones and then we realize further down the road just how much the old ones have our back. It's nice to be able to have friends that I can be myself around and not trying to be something I am not....and always being afraid of stepping on someones toes. It's still not easy, but who said life was?! :o) All of that aside...here are some pictures from a couple of recent youth functions and a few from our trip to the circus. :o) Hope you enjoy!!!! {after this it will probably just be a "you" that reads my blog} :o)

My brother and I....Stinky didn't want a picture with me.! :0)

Me and Alaina :)

Me, Lianna, Tim and Alaina~ At the "Black Out"...after the regular lights were back on :o)

My cousins and Austin @ Our day at the circus

The clowns were my FAVORITE part!!! ;o)

Self explanatory ;o)

The "bendy" ladies. WHOA!!! They were all "bent out of shape" :o)

Well, that is it for now! Sleep time for me!!!!

Peace, Love & Pickled Pigs Feet! :o)

Stop! Drop! ROLL!!!!!

Youth service tonight was GREAT!!!! I will not live in fear of what others think of me.....I am ME because God made me this way!

This is Tim, Alaina and I after youth :)

Hanna and I :) She is too sweet! :)

Well, that is it for now :)

Peace, Love & Birthday Cake! :)

Not afraid of spray paint!

Sooo I think it is time for a bedroom makeover....ya thank?! I DO!!!!! So here is the bedding I am getting http://www.urbanoutfitters.com/urban/catalog/productdetail.jsp?itemdescription=true&itemCount=80&startValue=1&selectedProductColor=&sortby=&id=20571048&parentid=A_DEC_BEDDING&sortProperties=+subCategoryPosition,+product.marketingPriority&navCount=0&navAction=jump&color=&pushId=A_DEC_BEDDING&popId=APARTMENT&prepushId=&selectedProductSize=

I LOVE everything about this bedding! :) And here are a few inspiration photos. :)

For those of you who know me, you know that I like all things abnormal and bright.....isn't that deer head CUTE?! I am totally NOT a "deer head person" but that is so awesome! AND the Fork and Knife curtains are to die for!!! :)

So vintage yet modern- Lovely!

Neat way to hang pictures....and 2 I am totally loving frames right now (of course they have to be spray painted first! :)

Vintage LOVE!

Now this is my type of dining room! Totally LOVING IT!

Sooo cheery! :)

Loving the pattern mixing!

ColoredChandy's are awesome!!!! :)

Love the colored furniture :)

Weird in a cool way :)

LOVE the idea

So different...but very neat! :)

http://pinterest.com is my favorite site right now! I stalk it everyday :) Anyhow! :) Life is good....and I now can say I have blogged. :)

Peace, Love & Pinterest! :)

I can't find me glasses...need to ask me mum.

Oh, on me face them are! Hehehe! So, I was thinking the next post would be more pictures from my party.....BUT......I am babysitting and while they are occupied I thought I would make the time to blog, because I really haven't had the time before now. Sooo, next week is me barfday and I am really scared! Hahaha! Kidding! Also next week is our church Anniversary. Bro. Anthony Ballestero, Bro. Willhoite, and Bro. Padgett will be preaching and Sunday night Sis. Kim Ballestero is doing a concert. Can't wait!!!!!!! It's going to be AWWWWESOME!! :) And HEAVENS to Betsy!!!!!!!! I don't have anything else to blog about. I need to put the kiddos down for bed. Goodbye fer now, me friends! Peace, Love & Peaches! :) :) :)